Anxiety seems to be the main order of August. Unlike the earlier days, when it only welled up feelings of agitation and anger, in this phase I'm just going through the emotions, gulping air. A few nights ago that cavernous sense of unease crept up on me, and over the course of several minutes, I exercised one of those mind palace visions to calm myself down. It was this: of myself in a thick pool of clear water, controlling my body to float and trusting the liquid - instead of succumbing to drowning. It seems arbitrary when written down, but I guess this is the purpose of journalling. And if these past two years taught me anything, it's to appreciate even infinitesimal progresses.
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